WHY YOU MATTER

Some people experience life more vividly, are more aware of subtleties, and process information more deeply than others. You may have been described as having keen intelligence, and unbounded perceptivity; You may have been called or feel like an old soul. Your sentimental nature means you are always pondering the transient nature of relationships and situations, and plagued by an intangible feeling of divine homesickness.  

 

Your sensitivity makes it hard for you to fit into the hypocritical aspects of this world. This is because you possess a particular kind of awareness to the truth, to injustice, to suffering, and to the painstakingly beautiful things.

 

In our world today, the norm is to try and cover up our deep-rooted existential anxiety by means of numbing. When things get too much, it is in our human nature to want to want to close our eyes and pretend that nothing is happening.  Many people have settled to dull their mind through engaging in mindless activities or consuming short-lived pleasure.  

 

However, those who were born with a sensitive and perceptive soul struggle to do that. It is not that you try to be different, or pretend that you are special, but you just cannot shut down your natural ability to see and feel so much.

 

You may feel that you have no other option than to take life seriously, and you aspire to live fully, intensely, with full presence and passion. Even when it hurts, the intense soul insides you stubbornly refuses to be diluted for her infinite zest for life, and wants to embrace it all, with wide open eyes. Perhaps deep down you know that in the end, the joy and aliveness you will experience is in direct proportion to the suffering you can endure. In the end, without sensitivity what would life be? It is this part of you that has given your life so much colour and meaning. Although it is a source of both ecstasy and terror, it is also the source of all that is precious and memorable. 

 

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SOCIETY’S REJECTION OF DIVERSITY

 

Emotional Intensity is a form of ‘neurodiversity’— the biological reality that particular groups of the population are innately different from the norm.  

 

As as a human species, we seem inept at embracing differences. We have divided ourselves in a countless number of ways— between black and white, between the majority and the minority, between introverts and extroverts, between the stoic and the sensitive. Our current political climate is a clear reflection of this dark side of our tribal nature.

 

This is why the sensitive and intense people often find themselves on the margin of society, being condemned as being ‘too this’ and ‘too that,' or that somehow they are deemed as being too fragile for the world.

 

The problem is not our differences, but our judgement of each other, and the indifference towards it. By pathologising, stigmatising and marginalising intense people, the world is sitting on a gold mine without knowing it, and we are being held back in progression as a collective. 

 

THE PROBLEM WITH NUMBING  

 

To be human is to feel. Yet we live in an emotions-phobic world nowadays. Our system medicalises the most natural human expressions: Grieve of the loss of loved ones, anxiety in our fast moving world, anger when injustice happen. We tend to judge certain emotions as ‘good’, or ‘bad’, and the society as a whole has become afraid of strong, honest emotional expressions.  This kind of collective apathy cannot sustain itself. By pathologising, stigmatising and marginalising intense people, we also deny emotional honesty. 

   

On an individual level, numbing our feelings makes life feel barren.  Without emotions, even when our mind is busy, we feel vacant, lethargic and bored with life.  It is as if life is passing by in front of us without we fully living in. By detaching from our passion, we no longer know what we want. As a result, many people experience a lingering low-grade depression or background anxiety. 

 

On the other hand, what we resist persist. The more we push emotions away, the more they will come back in full force, in ways and times that we least expect them- that is when we get triggered for no obvious reasons, burst out in sudden rage, or we resort to extreme behaviours in order to further suppress how we feel. Humans are not robots. Our psyche has its wisdom.  It knows that if we are to ignore our emotions, they will grow like weeds and eventually destroy us.  Deep down, our soul knows we need to find a way to digest, process, and dissolve them. 

 

 WHEN WE COLLECTIVELY DISCONNECT

 

A world in which we collectively disconnect is a dangerous one. Crime, violence, discriminations happen when we as a society become desensitised to each others’ suffering.  It may feel ‘easier’ to detach from the pain and injustice in the world. However, such temporary tranquillity is brittle, because just like waves can never separate from the ocean, we can never completely disconnect with the rest of the world.  

 

It is only natural that we cry over the woes of the world, and be pained when it is in pain. What else is a heart for, if not this? Mother Teresa once beautifully said 'May God break my heart so completely the whole world falls in.’ Her heart may be broken day after day, yet she is one of the emotionally strongest people ever lived. 

 

You might have felt that you have no choice but to protect yourselves in this unpredictable and volatile world.  You might have felt that you had to withdraw, to defend, to hide behind four walls. As you have probably figured out by now, such strategy leads merely to internal deadness. Defending against the world doesn’t work. Neither do shrinking and hiding. And numbing out your heart brings psychic death.  The only thing that can take you forward is to open your heart and mind.

  

 “Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair.”  - Andrew Soloman

“Depression is the flaw in love. To be creatures who love, we must be creatures who can despair at what we lose, and depression is the mechanism of that despair.”

- Andrew Soloman

 

 WHAT GOT US HERE WILL NOT GET US THERE

 

The chaotic time that we are in is imbued with potential. 

 

For the last few decades, our world has been driven by linear, mechanistic, patriarchal values (I don't mean an individual male is oppressing women, but a cultural narrative that is dualistic, results and action-oriented). We have gone very information-driven, intellectual, and concrete. We have been ambitious, driven, stressed human-doings, disowning our essence as human beings. As the world gets more shallow and literal, we slip into the tyranny of logical productivity and dismiss the heart- centred intelligence guided by emotions. 

 

But it is not working.  We are constantly stressed out. We feel separated from one another. We need to drown ourselves in hedonistic activities. Our global economy is outgrowing the capacity of the earth to support it, and what is happening in the politics might just be the ‘final push’ of the old system, before it is forced to recede. 

 

 As a whole, we are yearning for a more vibrant life, one that is about inner abundance, rather than materials.  Communities need inspirations, not more information. People yearn to be led by empathy, rather than force.  

 

Humanity is calling for a different way of being, and a redefinition of power. Even in the most ego-driven corporate space, increasingly we hear people saying things like ‘trust your gut instinct, ‘follow your intuition’, or ‘watch the energy in the room’.   Our new world calls for those who are sensitive, intuitive, empathic, authentic and transparent. We are waiting for the emergence of heart-centred trailblazers, torch-bearer, and bridge-walkers. And this is where sensitive, intense and gifted people come in. 

 

  “ We cannot change the way the world is, but by opening to the world as it is we may discover that gentleness, decency and bravery are available, not just to us, but to all human beings’" - ChongyamTrungpa.

“ We cannot change the way the world is, but by opening to the world as it is we may discover that gentleness, decency and bravery are available, not just to us, but to all human beings’" - ChongyamTrungpa.

 

FROM MISFITS TO LEADERS

 

You see, passionate engagement with life is not an easy path, and it is a path less travelled by. The word passion comes from the Latin verb patio, which means to suffer and to endure. Passionate living entails a kind of openness where you are being exposed to the up and downs, gain and loss, pleasure and pain in life. When you choose to walk the path of passion, you commit yourself to come face to face with the bare bone of reality- including its embedded challenges and uncertainties, even when they pain you, trouble you, and tire you out.  

 

Even when others don’t see it, and you have not yet recognised it, it actually takes a tremendous amount of courage to be you! In fact, may I suggest that you are born a warrior of life, the protagonist of a Hero’s Journey into your authentic self?   

 

Your love for life itself is the most powerful when you can combine it with your ability to see beauty and make intellectual or creative linkages. This is what artists and poets have done all their lives across history. Sadly, though, historically and up until today, those with visionary or insightful qualities are also deemed mad, pathological, and schizophrenic by the world.  Yet the misunderstood ‘misfits’ are also the ones who have shown the world the most bravery, tenacity and love. They were the great healers, visionaries, trailblazer, creatives of their time. 

Let me give you some examples.

 

Steve Jobs — as brilliant as he was — is often being portrayed as an abrasive, hot-tempered and even narcissistic leader. He was misunderstood because of his unusual level of intellectual, imaginational and emotional intensities— known as ‘over-excitabilities’, these are common traits for many highly talented individuals across history.  His fast mind and strong intuition created an immense amount of creative pressure from within him, which sometimes came out as obsessions or even madness.  Deep down, he was a highly intuitive and emotional person.  When he found something truly incredible, he was moved to tears: "Every once in a while, I find myself in the presence of purity — purity of spirit and love — and I always cry."  He cared deeply, which drove him to be demanding of those around him.   A lot of people mistook that his passion for arrogance, or his focus as selfishness.  

 

Van Gogh- Many know Vincent van Gogh as the brilliant, disturbed artist who fought with depression.  He was also known for cutting off part of his ear and committing suicide.  Rather than simply labelling him as mad,  we can come to understand Van Gogh as someone overwhelmed by his own creative visions and sensual perceptions. He had a deep passion for not just beauty and colour, but also his family and divinity.  In contrast to the image of a self- obsessed artist, he had a big heart, and an intense devotional and spiritual life-- He volunteered to preach in an impoverished Belgian coal-mining town, whose population adored him. As an artist, his intense and passionate nature went against the artistic style that was popular at the time-- Impressionism that was the softly brushed depiction of tranquil scenes in nature or of royal people. In the end, Van Gogh was misunderstood and undermined because he created art that was ahead of his time.  

 

Princess Diana - the first wife of Prince Charles of Wales, remained the object of worldwide media scrutiny both during and after her passing. The media has painted her with the portrait of a troubled Princess, someone who was emotionally volatile and unstable. In truth, despite a sensitive and delicate outlook, Princess Diana was never truly fragile. She was vulnerable but strong, humble but stood up for her values. She was a dynamic woman who combined many fine traits shared by highly sensitive, intense and gifted people: Warmth, empathy, grace, humility, wit, thoughtfulness, generosity, compassion, resilience and courage. Her graceful resilience was a rare gift.  "She was an entirely intuitive person," said journalist and historian Paul Johnson. "She was not particularly good at rational processes, but she could get on well with people because she could grasp ideas if they had emotional importance to her.” With her compassion and deep understanding, she was not only a safe haven to those around her but also a role model for all sensitive women who came after her.   As a true trailblazer Princess Diana has a compelling sense of herself as the seeker and speaker of truth, she was a strong woman who openly spoke about people’s fears of strong women.  

 

Leonard Cohen- Leonard Cohen has a reputation for being dark, pessimistic, and was known as the poet of brokenness, or the ‘prince of gloom’. Yet we often overlook the deep emotional strength embedded in his virtues and his work. What he is, is someone who is emotionally honest, and was brave enough to acknowledge the shadows of our collective consciousness.  When we take a closer look at his work, we see that even his bleakest expression there is a sense of sharp wit, reverence for the truth and a sense of deep empathy. In his track Anthem, Cohen famously intoned: “There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in. ”Sensitivity and perceptiveness are among Cohen's many fine qualities. He intuitively knows what people want, or feel. He is strong enough to be vulnerable, and have transmuted his own suffering into life-affirming arts that can touch millions.

 

Virginia Woolf- Much examination has been made of Woolf's mental illness, many speculated manic- depressive or Bipolar disease. Indeed, she seemed to work on the edges between what was considered sanity and what would be called mental crises. Yet to her, these are utterly natural cycles that revealed the true workings of her mind. Most often the media portrayal of Virginia Woolf give prominence to her mental crises and suicide, yet if we look at her life, she has been a prolific and gifted creator, a committed pacifist,  a second wave feminist before its time, and a true legacy that continues to inspire a million others. She was indeed an emotionally gifted woman, misunderstood as she was ahead of her time.  

  

Your unusual life path is a summon from Life.  Intense people are positioned to be the game-changers, the truth- tellers, and the fierce lovers of the world. By nature, you are the pioneers and the questioners and the progressives whose role in the world is to bring forth the realities which others do not yet see or understand.  You can deny it, fight it, but in the end, you would not be able to deny or suppress your unique insights and perspectives. Although you might not have chosen this path, it is your path. 

  

 

 “Change always involves a dark night when everything falls apart. Yet if this period of dissolution is used to create new meaning, then chaos ends and new order emerges.”  ― Margaret J. Wheatley

“Change always involves a dark night when everything falls apart. Yet if this period of dissolution is used to create new meaning, then chaos ends and new order emerges.”

― Margaret J. Wheatley

 

YOUR SUMMON

 

Existing self-help resources for highly sensitive people often focus heavily on protective and defensive strategies; this breeds the idea that sensitive people are somehow ‘too fragile for the world’.  Through my encounter with many of you, I saw quite the opposite — with your intensity, sensitivity and perceptivity, intense people have important work to do in the world. It is critical that you do not collapse into the trap of pathology.  Not being able to own your gifts and be authentic about your true nature keep you in hiding and holds you back from bringing your gifts into the world. Such act deprives not only you but also the progression of our collective consciousness. Your sensitivity and intensity are the doorways to your fullest potential, and you are not serving the world by playing small.   

 

Real emotional health is not about stoicism. It is about our ability to expand, to absorb, and the willingness to say yes to our inner and outer world. It is about allowing life to move you and affect you deeply, without losing your ground.  

 

We root in order to rise. While healing old wounds is important, we are ready for the next step. The next chapter is about moving from victimhood to heroism,  going from being the ‘misfits’ to standing as the leaders of the world (and this can take many forms. You can be a thought leader that speaks to a small niche, a quiet creative pioneer, or you can model how to be the best parent in town). 

 

My pledge may seem extreme, but for too long intense people have been misunderstood, shamed, and sidelined, and just like the beginning of any movement, a forceful pushback is needed to swing the pendulum. 

 

At this point, some of you may ask: Am I really that ‘special’? Are you suggesting that I am superior in some way? Does this further alienate me from those around me? I do understand the fear of your own power, and of losing belongingness. Here is a more useful way of thinking about it: We all have our unique blueprints and trajectory in this lifetime, and everyone is being gifted with certain qualities to do certain things in the world. Maybe you are qualitatively (rather than quantitatively) different to someone who is less intense, but that does not make you any better or worse. As your body already knows, suppressing your expression leads to existential guilt, depression, restlessness, physical pain and chronic emptiness. In other words, you don’t have a choice but to follow where your intensity leads. 

 

Claiming your place in the world is not just a real act of courage, but also a form of noble public service. By showing up to the world as the sensitive empath that you are, you are championing not just for your rights, but also all the passionate and porous souls that come before and after you. By standing up for yourself when others call you a ‘drama queen’ or ‘too this and that,' you are helping your soul sisters and brothers to fight against injustice. Being unapologetically honest about your emotional reality is not only personally healing, but also transpersonally meaningful.

    

  "Being gifted means you are called upon to help people find their path and bringing a little bit more light into the world. Being gifted is to have the gift to make yourself glow so you can touch others and help them to find their own glow. - Sandra Mantel

"Being gifted means you are called upon to help people find their path and bringing a little bit more light into the world. Being gifted is to have the gift to make yourself glow so you can touch others and help them to find their own glow. - Sandra Mantel

 

For now, I will leave you with this quote from Herman Hesse, and I wish you well on your utterly precious and heroic journey:

 

“We who bore the mark might well be considered by the rest of the world as strange, even as insane and dangerous. We had awoken, or were awakening, and we were striving for an ever perfect state of wakefulness, whereas the ambition and quest for happiness of the others consisted of linking their opinions, ideals, and duties, their life and happiness, ever more closely with those of the herd. ‘

 

Love,

Imi