When Someone You Love Has BPD
If someone you love has BPD symptoms such as intense mood swings, fear of abandonment, emotional reactivity, self-harming and self- destructive behaviours, you may feel like you are being dragged into one storm after another, deprived of peace in your life and are left feeling powerless and increasingly hopeless.
If your loved one is recovering from complex childhood wounds or Complex PTSD, they probably experience reality differently than you do. It is helpful to gain some insights into how their world operates, thus make some sense of their behaviours.
In everyday situations, you may be feeling hurt or frustrated as your loved one seems to: constantly make untrue accusation, are angry at you all the time, or blame you for things that are not your fault. Without understanding and support, this can be a painful and exhausting journey. Sometimes, it is hard to see or remember that their behaviours are not directed towards you but stem from their internal struggles.
Here are a few descriptions of psychological phenomena that they might be experiencing:
Feelings are ‘too real’
Some psychologists call this ‘psychic equivalence’. Your loved one may forget that their feelings, thoughts, beliefs and wishes are simply part of their mental activities. To them, their fear, anxiety, feelings of disgust, the thought that someone dislikes them… are all as real as reality. In other words, for them, the feeling of shame and self- badness can be experienced with such level of intensity that it becomes destructive.
Out of sight, out of mind
In psychology terminology, this is known as lack of object constancy. Your loved one might have problems with holding onto a consistent mind image when it comes to relating to other. They struggle to have a sense of continuity and consistency about people in their lives.
They may experience terrible anxiety when people leave. There is a desperate need to hold onto the physical connection or to seek reassurance of others’ love, because they may struggle to hold onto the concept of self without the help of others.
You may feel that you need to constantly remind them of the fact that you love and care for them. When you don’t, they may interpret this as you not caring for them anymore. This is because without you constantly reminding them, they have a hard time holding a sense of ‘loving presence’ in their mind. On the surface, this can come across as ‘clingy’, or extremely anxious behaviours in relationships.
Extreme sensitivity and rage
Because of the lack of object constancy, you may find that your action is often being read as if there were no prior context and that your intention is being defined solely by how you last interacted with them. You may feel that whatever you say seem to trigger an intense rage, or that you are constantly being misinterpreted for what you say. This can also come across as a heightened sensitivity towards criticism.
However, it is important to not blame every conflict or misunderstanding of their difficulties regulating emotions.
Your loved one might be very intuitive. In fact, they may pick up your feelings or intention before you are aware of them. Acknowledging how you may have contributed to the conflict can defuse the rage and maybe the most constructive response.
If you suspect someone has BPD, it is often not helpful to directly confront his or her with the label. However, you can let them know about your concerns, provide linkages to relevant resources, and let them know that effective treatments are available when they are ready to reach out for help.
HOW TO DEAL WITH A HEATED CONFLICT
The intensity, creativity and the profound capacity to love are what makes someone with BPD lovable, yet when you are with them, you may feel you don’t know which person you are going to get— one moment you get someone loving and warm, the next moment you get someone sad or aggressive.
Being with someone with BPD is indeed a rollercoaster ride, but that does not mean you should give up on the relationship. Here are some pointers that might help, especially when you are in the middle of a heated conflict.
AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, BE ATTENTIVE
People with BPD are exceptionally sensitive to any signs of rejection or abandonment. (The concept of Object Permanence can explain why this is) Even if you don’t have the intention to walk away, they can easily feel emotionally abandoned if you shut down or start to ignore them. They are also highly perceptive and intuitive. If you nod your head and say yes, without truly listening, they will feel it.
It is a tall order to always be attentive, especially when you are with an intense and fast-moving person. You don’t need to always have the answer, or be 100% patient, but if you can have the intention to stay and listen as much as you can; they will be able to feel your love and care for them.
Even if you cannot express your love in words, they will be calmed by your quiet presence.
VALIDATE THEIR FEELINGS EVEN WHEN YOU DISAGREE
From your rational perspective, your loved one may be thinking and acting unreasonably. When they are triggered and having an episode of melt-down, it can be very hard to get on the same side with them.
However, you do not need to agree with them to validate their feelings.
When it comes to human emotions, there is no right or wrong. In a way, all feelings are ‘logical’ because there are stories and reasons behind all of them. If someone never had consistent experience of being loved, if their life experience has taught them affection would always be taken away, or even a sign of danger, it makes sense that they react the way they do.
Your judgement does not change their emotional reality. In your eyes, they are over-reacting. But what does not make sense to you makes sense to them.
The good news is just because you disagree does not mean you are their enemy— you can validate the feelings behind their actions or perspectives
For example, you may paraphrase what they express: ’I understand that you feel ____,’ ‘I understand, from what you are saying, that right now you are feeling____ and thinking ___.’ This way, you are not lying or bending your own beliefs. You are merely empathising with their reality.
SEE THEIR INNER CHILD
Most people with BPD have suffered complex and prolonged trauma in their early lives. Inside of them still lives a wounded child that is hoping to be heard, to be loved, and to be told they are wanted. Sometimes, we forget that. We see someone who is generally high-functioning, creative and perhaps capable in other areas in their life, so we don’t assume they are walking around with an open wound.
You may be surprised when, during a heated argument, they suddenly regress into a child-like state. During these times, you are not dealing with the healthiest part of them, but the most hurt and lost part. This becomes clear if you can see beyond their hurtful words and volatile behaviours, and look at their body language— the screaming, the shrinking, the shaking. They may say things that they later regret, just like children might throw a tantrum when they do not get their way.
It is hard to remain calm when you are attacked. But imagining that you are dealing with a hurt child may help. Just like a child, they have not yet learned the language to express their needs and wants, so all the screaming and shouting are a cry for help.
See if you can take a step back and think about the emotional needs that are behind the surface behaviours. You may then see deep longings that come from deprivations in their past.
Try to remember that your loved ones’ behaviours are often there to shield them from intense emotional pain, not to hurt or manipulate you.
SET KIND BUT FIRM BOUNDARIES
Being compassionate and seeing their inner child does not mean you have to be a doormat or tolerate abuse.
There is a middle ground in which you can set healthy boundaries with compassion. Just like with a child, you can be loving but firm at the same time.
Trying to reason with them is often not possible in the heat of the moment, but you do not have to use logic and reason, you simply have to firmly and calmly reiterate your bottom line.
As much as possible, don’t walk away. Leaving them on their own may just be the worst fuel for their fear of abandonment. See if you can start by clearly stating the consequences in a non-punishing way, for instance, you may say: “I understand you feel ____, and I want to be here for you. But if you continue to shout or throw things, I will have to leave the room for five minutes.”Don’t pose an empty threat, and execute what you said. At the same time, don’t aim to punish or counter-attack.
Later, when they come back to calm and can have an adult conversation with you, you may sit down together to make a plan.
A good ‘crisis plan’ involves identifying their worst triggers, what could support them during those times, and what not to do. This is not just about them— you can also state your needs, and you can negotiate. The goal of this exercise is to plan ahead, so both of your needs are met and honoured.
MOST IMPORTANTLY, HONOUR AND LOVE YOURSELF
You may love them, you feel bad for what they have to go through, but you cannot save them.
You may feel manipulated, resentful, or guilty, but being locked into an unhealthy relationship dance with them is not going to resolve anything.
You are your own person, and they are theirs. Love does not equal co-dependency. You can never go back to erase their painful past, nor could you be their saviour. Please do not blame yourself for not being able to rescue. You can be their best ally and support, but you are not responsible for their healing or growth.
If you feel resentful about being in this relationship, remember it is your choice to stay or leave. If you choose to stay, try not to punish them for your own decision.
Some people say BPD can never be ‘cured’, this is not true. Research after research, story after story have proven otherwise.
Even they can be challenging to be with, people with BPD are highly empathic, intuitive, loving and powerful.
If you decide to walk this journey together, your love and commitment will help them heal. And the reward at the end of this road would be worth it.